I know this may offend some people but I just need to express myself. I know others have felt the same way as me at times so I'm not completely alone. This is just me coming from my own personal experiences and feelings on the subject. I know some of you may disagree and I'm totally okay with that. I know where I have been in the past and I have compassion on every step of my journey as I do on others.
First off I just want to say that I do consider myself to be spiritual. I believe in a higher Power/God, prayer, meditation, being in nature to recharge, positive thinking and even have an interest in quantum physics and believe in life on other planets and have sensed energies/angels and things I can't always explain logically. I just believe that spiritual discernment is a skill that must be learned. It's easy to become brainwashed into believing something. What I'm learning now is that you can look to others to be a mentor and guide on your journey but ultimately the teacher is within yourself if you will listen. I also want to state that not everyone who labels themselves as New Age will behave or think the same way, just as not all people under the Christian category will. I just started feeling like New Age was turning into a feel good pseudo spirituality.
It seems like a special club for all the so called spiritual, positive, ascending, unity consciousness and so on...I came to realize that just because some says, "Namaste, love and light" or things like that doesn't mean they are automatically a perfect person or someone that I could trust to be there for me.
In the past I was joining all these New Age groups and listening to their teachings. Now I don't want to say that the New Age teachings don't contain some wisdom or spiritual truths bu I felt they overgeneralize, exaggerate, and oversimplify everything. I finally decided it was time to just go back to feeling like me again without anyone else's ideas shoved into my head. Now I'm ready to leave behind old philosophies.
There were also a small number of people who used drugs to try to access a higher level of spirituality and that's just not me and I don't want to be around that. Not judging but I'm doing what's right for me. I don't like feeling spaced out or out of my body. Also don't get me wrong, "blissing out" can be a wonderful thing and way to escape from your life's challenges for a short period of time but when things start to become an addiction or you start to become overly focused upon things that are taking you out of your body that's where I start to have a problem. To me spirituality needs to be balanced. I'm a daydreamer by nature but I know I have to focus that energy into my body and reality in order to get things done.
Now I beware of all magic wand approaches. They are nothing more than the energy equivalent of modern drugs, except their debilitating side effects will probably not appear until it's too late. Talk of the ascension process is very popular too. There were certain hyped up ascension dates where I didn't experience anything at all happening. Maybe someone else had a different experience than I did though. Are we evolving on many levels? Yes, but some of us are also very stagnated as well and living in the past. I believe ascension isn't exactly a global thing that everyone is experiencing in the same way. I feel like we are all on our very own individual journeys and I can't help but ask the people who say they are ascending where they are ascending to? Not trying to make fun of anyone but seriously questioning things. I assume that ascension leads to enlightenment? I got the vibe that enlightenment was being made out to be all about changing yourself and feeling good all the time. So if you're enlightened you should never feel bad and you should always feel uplifted like you just did some great drug? In my opinion, enlightenment can actually feel very uncomfortable. Most people don't want to do that work.
One belief I've come across is that there are no victims and that our thoughts and attitudes attracted everything into our lives. While I do believe in taking self responsibility I have seen many a shitty things happen to really beautiful souls who did their best to be healthy and positive. Some teachings said that we are all one and on some level yes I can understand that but there are dark forces out there and negative energies. Another New Age belief is to ignore the negative. The word negative is even seen as a dirty word. "I don't want to learn what's wrong by hearing it or seeing it and God forbid I don't want to say it. Don't talk about the negative and it will only bring more." Sometimes it's as if we're being taught to ignore what's really there and just go to spiritual gurus. I still haven't found a belief system that I can say that I 100% resonate with. I still have friends who are Christian, Atheists and also New Age and I love them all the same. I just know though if I continue to trust my heart I will be lead where I need to be.
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Sunday, November 15, 2015
Space Thoughts
It's said that 95% of space is still unexplored. So apparently we have explored 5% of space already. I feel it's far less than that. So in the vastness of space, is it really empty? Well, there is something called dark matter in space and it bends the way we see light so the actual objects shape is distorted. Dark matter is something that cannot be detected by normal means. There can be many things we just simply cannot see yet. Air is invisible to us, but it's still there.
We're using the Hubble space telescope that has been launched into outer space and that has brought us images but can we purely rely on those images? And in order to see an object it needs to have light reflecting off it. So if there are objects out there very far away from the sun then could we see it?
Also string theory tells us that what we think of as 'reality' is made up of 11 dimensions. They say the 11th dimension holds the key to faster-than-light travel. So if you believe in there being 11 dimensions, then we still haven't really explored what those 11 dimensions are and if they hold the key to answer other questions, possibly even time travel?
We may have limitations in our understanding now, but just thinking of the technology we have naturally and man-made astonishes me sometimes. I feel sometimes we may discount the discovery of being able look inside of a mothers womb to see what the growing baby looks like? Or how a dolphin uses the amazing ability of echolocation to navigate the oceans and can "see sound".
As for moving forwards in space travel, it brings me to a movie which I recently watched called, The Martian. In the movie, the astronaut played by Matt Damon was able to use his knowledge as botanist to grow food. In reality, NASA is planning a trip to Mars down the line but they are still figuring out if something like sustaining crops on the planet could ever play out for real. I feel that even if we can't physically be there for extended periods of time to test out these different ideas that we could use the technology of a robot and train it to be able to do certain actions on the planet to see if it could "live" in the way we'd need to.
I still go to bed with more questions than answers but without mystery, life sure would be boring.
We're using the Hubble space telescope that has been launched into outer space and that has brought us images but can we purely rely on those images? And in order to see an object it needs to have light reflecting off it. So if there are objects out there very far away from the sun then could we see it?
Also string theory tells us that what we think of as 'reality' is made up of 11 dimensions. They say the 11th dimension holds the key to faster-than-light travel. So if you believe in there being 11 dimensions, then we still haven't really explored what those 11 dimensions are and if they hold the key to answer other questions, possibly even time travel?
We may have limitations in our understanding now, but just thinking of the technology we have naturally and man-made astonishes me sometimes. I feel sometimes we may discount the discovery of being able look inside of a mothers womb to see what the growing baby looks like? Or how a dolphin uses the amazing ability of echolocation to navigate the oceans and can "see sound".
As for moving forwards in space travel, it brings me to a movie which I recently watched called, The Martian. In the movie, the astronaut played by Matt Damon was able to use his knowledge as botanist to grow food. In reality, NASA is planning a trip to Mars down the line but they are still figuring out if something like sustaining crops on the planet could ever play out for real. I feel that even if we can't physically be there for extended periods of time to test out these different ideas that we could use the technology of a robot and train it to be able to do certain actions on the planet to see if it could "live" in the way we'd need to.
I still go to bed with more questions than answers but without mystery, life sure would be boring.
Friday, November 6, 2015
My message to the creative free spirit
I was recently inspired by a woman who reminded me so much of myself except for the fact that she doesn't give a flying fuck what anyone thinks of her. Yeah....I said it. She has her own business using her own unique gifts and flaunts her quirky personality and sense of humor. I thought to myself, wow that must feel pretty liberating to live like that and terrifying as well because..*gasp* some people might not like me. Then I thought well there are already people already don't like me so what have I got to lose?
I thought back to when I used to be on a dance team and was kicked out of a few numbers since I wasn't "good enough". Regardless dancing is something that has always brought me joy. I thought well why stop doing it just because you haven't won someone else's approval? The same insecurities popped up around my other creative interests such as music, singing etc. The whole comparison devil started to play out in my life until it got to a point of analysis paralysis. We can be afraid of being a beginner and as a female the whole competition game can be fierce. I used to constantly compare myself to other women or my ex's new girlfriend and so on. There is nothing wrong with seeing a positive trait in someone else and trying to emulate it in our own unique way but we often are actually trying to just be a carbon copy of someone else. Now instead of thinking how can I be more like her I think, how can I be more like Jackie? In her fullest potential and expansion and power? So if you want to create an orchestration, a painting, a dance, a novel... Then simply write the first sentence, compose the first note, step the first step. And for me I'll keep dancing!
I thought back to when I used to be on a dance team and was kicked out of a few numbers since I wasn't "good enough". Regardless dancing is something that has always brought me joy. I thought well why stop doing it just because you haven't won someone else's approval? The same insecurities popped up around my other creative interests such as music, singing etc. The whole comparison devil started to play out in my life until it got to a point of analysis paralysis. We can be afraid of being a beginner and as a female the whole competition game can be fierce. I used to constantly compare myself to other women or my ex's new girlfriend and so on. There is nothing wrong with seeing a positive trait in someone else and trying to emulate it in our own unique way but we often are actually trying to just be a carbon copy of someone else. Now instead of thinking how can I be more like her I think, how can I be more like Jackie? In her fullest potential and expansion and power? So if you want to create an orchestration, a painting, a dance, a novel... Then simply write the first sentence, compose the first note, step the first step. And for me I'll keep dancing!
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